met up with dolphin , yeeling , pat & christine with baobeii under my blk . than walked to 925 to meet curtis. aiai , dolphin , pat & christine give me a surprised . bought a cake for me & presents . thanks !!! love yous all laas. baobeii keep cryin so we got no time to walk . went to northpoint mac to wait for mummy to come fetch baobeii home . than me & yeeling went to her house to see her son . so cute cans . around 10 plus we went to 101 coffee shop to eat & chatted till 11 plus went home . than meet up with melissa . chatted with her till 2 plus & a uncle fetch us home . reached home bathe & sleep . took some photos will upload once pat upload them . BYES peeps

happy birthday to me

hellos !! today is my 18 birthday went school & back home after school . met eric , hong & jennifer to east coast . catch soft toys again . they wished me happy birthday . catch a 75cm dhes banana soft toy & a small donald duck & a packet of sweets that weights 1kg something . cans eat till bogay liaos . but lucky the sweets jennifer say she want if not i really have to eat till bogay lerhs . hhahas , reached home at 4.45am . gonna sleep soon . bye peeps !!!!

i think i should give up on baobeii

“There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.”


baobeii , mummy got no choice so i have to make a decision right now . though yous cant see me everyday & i cant see yous everyday like the past . but at least we get to see twice a week sometimes . mummy promised yous there's one day , i'll come back & bring yous along to stayed with me . now i'm useless , i got nothing , no money everything also dont have . i'll prove to them one day & caused of yous , mummy will try my very best to have yous back with me . no matter what happens in the future i'll hold yours hands tightly to walk the darkness road together . mummy loves sylvester .
“Missing someone gets easier everyday. Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will”
in my hearts yous will always be my son . sorry that i made yous suffer . i'm not a good mother . i promised to get yous back 1 day .
baobeii i'm sorry ! forgive mummy will yous?
shirley mummy loves sylvester son .

happy birthday KOEY

just woke up and i realise that today ish koey's 18 birthday . she's just older that me by 1 day . so cool . hhahas . later still got school . sians . finally got to meet D later . hais , we got almost 4 or 5 days didnt meet lerhs wors . after the long long quarrel we had . alright will continue today's post later .


how am i goin to let go my past & carry on my life with baobeii .
who can help me.

memories of happiness

birthday at sentosa

yesterday went to have dinner with mummy & her friends & of cos baobeii too . ate lobster , lala , abalone & more . weets , super nice cans !! after eating they sang birthday song to me . thanks mummys & her friends . after math, met joycie at inter than bused down to vivo to met the rest .
went mac to eat than we cabbed to sentosa . palawan beach , went 7 eleven to blow air-con .l0ls , super hot !! slacked outside 7 eleven for awhile than walked to palawan beach there . climb the stairs all the way . reached the very top than have me & guanyou birthday song from them . lucky ii didn't get sabo only guanyou . have wasabi in his cake . hhahas . there are some guys from the other side came over to ask guanyou to have a drink . beer & all . we all laughed like nobody bisuness . slacked there & play all the way till 5.15 than me , andy & joycie leave sentosa . have our 45 mins walk from sentosa to vivo . than our 1 hour to trained till serangoon . andy xu went home . than me & joycie cab home . reached home around 7 plus . bathe & sleep till now 6pm than wake up . i'm happy . thanks to all of you.

tuesday its my birthday ii celebrated early . thanks to everyone of you . i'm happy .

happy birthday to guanyou .


photos will upload soon .

its a boring FRIDAY night

didnt meet D for 2 days . slept over at ahboy hse on thursday night . wake up washed face & cooked maggie for baby jie & gustine didi . after eating ben came to fetch me & baby to my hse . bathe & changed than to srg mac slack than headed to ben's sintua . after that went back to 409 to have a drink than to bugis as ben wanna take his shirt than we are back to srg again . slack & chatted happily with them than back home . now i'm here to post . tomo gonna celebrate my birthday & guanyou birthday with brothers they all . dunno what's their plann? lols
but its still early to my birthday !!! 3 more days !!!!!!!
hope mummy will give me a big big present !!! lastly , baobeii ish more & more cute each day ! mummy says he's learning to talk . YUPPI! but sad ish that today when home with baby jie , baobeii called my aunt "mama" but not me "( hais . i'm ur "mama" not her!!!! can imagine how sad i am when i heard him calling her "mama"infront of me !!! aunt still cans smile .


i'll make sure one day i'll let yous know who's ur real "mama" . its me !!!!!! i'll prove to yous all one day!!!! goin CRAZY soon LAAAAAAAAAAAAS!

counting down to my birthday

five more days to my 18 birthday . still dunno wanna go wher celebrate wors. hope yous guys will plann for me a happy & unforgotten birthday . sat meeting darling . weets finally cans meet her after so many months .
heard from mother that baobeii ish not feeling well . hais , baobeii though mummy not at ur side must guai guai listen to por por & ahyi they all oks ?though yous didnt call me mummy , yous call my aunty mummy i'm oks with it cos i know i'm not fit to be a good mother . sorry baobeii . but whenever mummy saw your smile & the way yous used to play with me & all i'm happy with it . this memories will always made me remembered yous . is up to yous if yous wanna call me mummy anot as long as i still cans get to see yous twice a week i'm happy . baobeii mummy loves yous .



cant wait till my birthday . cos i'm gonna be 18 lerhs . weets .

ps : darling , please dunn do anymore fresh case inside oks? sat must meet alright?loves yous
: joyce , cheer up alright . everythin will be fine . need a listening ear or help cans always call or text me . tkkaiires.
: baby jie , thanks for cheering me up when i'm done . loves yous lots .

gonna stop here . byes . tkkaiires

hello!!

everybody please for your info i'm no longer with steven & now i do have new boyf as steven also has new girlf !!!
baobeii is no longer belongs to him though is his son .


so people out there stop saying i'm steven's wife or girlf cos now i'm not . THANKS

i'm so bored!

woke up around 12 plus . called bi ask him wher he is? washed my face & on my com . dont feel like meeting bi cos i'm angry !! chatted with friends & ii suddenly miss my past . the days when ii cans be with the girls happily playing & all . but now all got their own family and work . what about me ?? arghhh!!! why cant i always have a good life uhs? family always shouted at me for nothin . wth !!! feel like dyin siahs . now the time ish 3.53pm & my precious son ish coming back at 4.30 pm . i miss him so muchh !! ytd went shoppin ii bought a shoes for him . hope baobeii like it . baobeii: this is what mummy can give . i'm sorry !! as what mummy told me . though ii cant get to see him ofetn now but no matter what he's still my son . though when ii'm pregnant i smokee & now got him into this sickness . is all my fault . hais . i'm not a good mother at all . all i want now is baobeii will grow healthy , he wont blame me when he grow older , he will always remembered me that i'm his mum & lastly i want to have a good family & life !!!









ii miss baobeii so much!! :(


baobeii mummy hope yous will always remembered me & the photos that mummy print out will always remind yous about me .








& this is the last photo . mummy loves yous.

pheeew!!

all my post gone "( haishh , nvm bahs . gonna start new diary from today .
nothing much to say . went to school as usual . back home around 9 plus . dolphine came to slack at my house , she left around 11 plus than i continue my blog & chattin in msn .

gonna stop here . BYES