NO MOOD!!

hais , had a big quarrel again , i really dunno what i'm supposed to do ! fcuking no mood !!! dont wished to think bout it anymore !!!!
after yesterday quarrel , i realise that i'm not important to you at all . well , i guess i know what i should do bahs .
yesterday i kept crying , thanks darling for comforting me , slept over at her place !!! than woke up went over to nuer hse !!!! slacked than in the afternoon around 5 went back home !!!

was watching tv half way , house phone rang & i answered guess who's that ? its DAD , i was like are you really papa ? pass the phone to grandma . they chatted . than papa ask me to add him in msn to chat , so i add luhs . video chatting with him . OMG ! he was so much diff from the last i saw him bout 14years ago !!! i gonna have a short post luhs , the conversation that me & papa really makes me miss him loads!!!! he said: papa , really love & miss you and jiejie , but i can't do anything for you all . i almost cried !! but i told him , i didnt blame him at all , i love him too cos he's my one & only papa !!! this is what i wanna post .

sorry , no mood to post !!! gonna stop here . BYES!!!!


gonna upload baobei's photo!!!

update of baby sheldon

today went check up with dearie . i'm super tired & yet dearie keep forcing me to wake as we are going to be late . woke up & faster prepared & cabby down to K.K.H for my check up . today was super fast man!! usually i have to wait for 1 hour plus but today just only around 15mins & its my turn liaos . fast hors !! john tee says that baby sheldon is very small that's why it causes me to feel uncomfortable some of the time . i mustn't skip my meals anymore , i have to eat whenever i'm hungry for the sake of baby sheldon . mummy also says that now i'm pregnant for 32 weeks but my tummy look like its only 3 or 4 mths . guess what ? my usual weight ish 43kg , today taking urine test & weight i thought it will be 50kg+ but actually its only 46.5kg . means all the while i only gain 3.5kg !!!! hopes nothing will happen to baby sheldon . i hope he's healthy too . gonna stop here lerhs . my legs are hurting , i dunno why . i need mummy to help me massage !!! byes !

wow , i cans see spider webby in my blog !!! alright i feeling better this few days lerhs . still having some headache & feeling umcomfortable . keep on stomach pain but go toilet wanna shit but nothing . than keep wanna vomit & no appetitie to eat luhs . this few days was at dearie hse if not dearie jiu at my hse . always at home & stayed with dearie & baobeii didnt go anywher lorhs . sians , this few days i only sleep nia nothing else liaos . mummy said i've grow thinner liaos . LOLS , maybe is i headache than ate those panaadol till like this bahs . hhahas , didn't meet darling for so many days lerhs , miss her siahs !! l0ls , miss her benben also luhs . ( darling see liaos will gan dong marhs ?) L0ls

alright let's me start what i wanna post bahs . 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DAD!!

though you have leaved us since i'm young , no matter what you still my only dad ! i'll remembered those days you called from other country & ask about me when that day i'm gonna give birth to your grandson sylvester . papa , i really miss you alot . hope you cans faster realease & come back . i'll be waiting . 

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finally its the last day of 7th month . was with dearie at his hse praying .

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did nothing at home . slept all the way luhs

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happy 1 year anni to me & dearie , i love you lots . though we always quarrel , scoldiing each other using bad words , ignoring each other , my love is still the same . this 1 year relationship you really tried to give what i want , thanks . but there's days that you wasn't with me . you went in DB & prison , i was all alone . i went to visit you without miss . all this memories are kept deeply . you're always mine & i love you.

baby jie text me saying that exams are coming . 

so this means i must studied for it liaos . hhahas , jie must help me with it okayes?

chocolate nuer , you called & cried telling me bout boyf . i understand how you feel , i know you give in to him alot too . i can't help you cos i'm not so good in relationship , sorry . but mom will support in whatever you do alright? loves you . cheer up alright . 

peizhuang darling , i super miss you luhs . love you too

i'm super lazy to post luhs!!

seriously i'm super lazy to post . dunno why also . lols , head keep pain leis . feel like banging the wall luhs . wanna die soon liaos . keep sleep sleep sleep only . will pOst only i feel abit better bahs . byes!!!!

baobei first day in child care

woke early in the morning , bathe baobei & all than waited for dearie to come . around 8 me , mummy , aunt & dearie bring baobeii to his child care . wow , he seems like enjoying over there . didnt even wanna care us lorhs . keep playing with his new friends over there . but also my little cousin was there too . the teachers over there says that they are like brother & sister luhs . cousin take care & look after baobeii when they are doin their things . baobeii & cousin slept together , cousin feed baobeii porridge at child care . happy that baobeii is enjoying . but scared after a few days he wont want to go there anymore :( hopefully he will enjoy bahs .

relationship between me dearie is quite good alr. still got a little conflict! hais , i dunn wanna care anymore , let it be bahs .

after fetching baobeii to childcare , accompany dearie cabb to his camp as he wanna take leave . than trained to woodland civic centre to do baobeii's childcare thingy . than tranied back home . slept . till 5 tha dearie went off & i continued to sleep . that's all for today !!! byes .

just woke up . nothing to say . hais gonna reply tags here .

peizhuang darling

thanks darling , you're so sweet . after everything i feel better , i'm fine don't worry.i'm trying my very best not to think & care so much lerhs . yeahs , will go find together dhes . hhahas , benben so cute uhs .

now everything i also dunwan cares liaos . wanna faster find job work , like this i won't think so much . lols . darling next week go find ohkayes . hhahs , loves you . we must together be strong , be good mummy luhs . thanks for everything too .

14 more days

i got lots to tell you ever since the big quarrel we had .

i'm sorry , i know i've said things that hurt you .but what i say

is all from my heart & it has been kept inside my heart for this few months of relationship.

14 more days its our 1 year anni . i wanted to give you a surprised on that day ,

but we kept quarrel this feel days ! i do love you alot . i know i shouldn't give you attitude .

its all my fault , i know you treated me well , you gave me things that i want .

you bought me things that i love . whenever i got not much money left , you will secretely put money inside my wallet. whenever we quarrel , you will pampered me .

bought me my fav ipoh hor fan or prawn noodles from geylang lor16.

even when its middle of the night , i'm hungry you will still find ways to get me my prawn noodles .

thanks my dear ! i know you really care & dotes on me .

but why this few days you treating me diff?

ytd i just went out till 12 plus or 1 than reached home , i know is my promised that

i'll be home early . but you don't need to scold me valgarities &

shouted at me like as if i'm owned you millions dollars .

you know how hurt am i anot?

my heart bleeds when you shouted at me . this is the first time you talk to

me till like this . i really dunno what happen.

you said you wanna go out till morning , you ask me for permission . i let you go .

i never ever shouted at you till like this before , but you...?
hais , you really hurt me alots . i guessed i should really give up bahs .

but i can't beared it cos i love you still .

you went out everynight to drink , you left me alone whennever

i'm at your place . why? why? why?

what happen between us ? 2 more months plus i gonna give birth lerhs .

i just want you to be by my side till i give birth also can't?

you keep telling me caused of me & baby , you working at night .

should i belive you?

chances are given to you lots of time.

you promised you will changed for the better

but i didnt see any improvement.

maybe i should really give up bahs.

you will only treat me good when we quarrel .

izzit that we must everyday quarrel than you will treat me good?

i really need an answer now.

i'm sick & tired of all this quarrels my dear !

i really need a break !!!!

hope you will know what day izzit on the 20-09-09

i still love you ! but i need some breath to breath.

perhabs , what they say is truth bahs , pregnant girls will anyhow think de .

maybe i really anyhow think bahs .

HAIS!

my heart bleeds , my mind turn blank,

i kept crying whenever i wanna slp, i kept

thinking what if 1 day i gonna lose you,

i kept telling myself i wanna be strong ,

i wanna be a good mother , good wifey , good daughter

but whenever i thought of this i feel like giving up .

i really dunno what to do .

family prob are troubling me too !! i really need some time!

No Guy Is Worth Your Tears & When You Find The One That Is He Won't Make You cry
If You Really Love Something Set It Free.

If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be

i'm still sick! sigh!

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went bugis with yeeling & darling . shopping!!! didn't bought much things caused i got not enough cash & nothing caught my eyes!! after bugis went town for lion dance competition !! saw my shiguan , was there supporting them . but sadly didn't get into next round !!! nvm , jiayou next time!! went back home at 11 plus , lucky , we managed to get the last train mans!!!! reached home bathe & sleep . quarrel with dearie .SIGH!!! i'm sick & tired of all this quarrels . i wanna STOP !!!!

today!
woke up ard 10plus . washed up & ate porridge . feeling so wired , i dunno why . after eating wanted to sleep back but i keep turning here & there . later maybe going down taka again . SUPPORT KUANSANTANG for the chuan tong . jiayou wors !!

baobeii , is getting more & more cute luhs . midnight cans suddenly wake up looking for me . so cute mans !! monday baobeii goin childcare liaos . hope he will used to it & hope he will like the teacher & his new friends over there . sad! monday mummy not gonna bring baobei there so i've to wake up early to bathe him & all than bring him over . hope he won't cried when i leave him there . got new photos of baobeii but i'm lazy to upload will upload when i dun feel lazy ! haas .
& i left 2 more months plus gonna give birth liaos . i wanna slim down after giving birth & shoped for nice clothes , grandma says that my second baby is not boy lorhs . caused old ppl say if pregnant ladies tummy look sharp means the baby is girl , if it look round than is boy . whatever luhs . boy girl i also duncare !! after all also my baby what!!! lols . lame !
alright stop here liaos . BYES !!


went to support KST for the chuan tong . the score for KST is 8.88 . the marks are quiet high!
quarrel with dearie!! hais

2sept2009
i'm sick !!! having bad flu , sore throat & headache. guess i'm not goin anywhere bahs . staying at home:)

1sept2009
woke up 8 plus in the morning . prepared & went to family court with mummy to do things till 2 plus . was raining heavily so we took cabby back home . baobeii is so naughty luhs . waited for the rainb to stop then mummy bring me to market , bought new handphone . samsung preston pink colour . weets !! nice colour . than went back home have dinner . after dinner meet up with yeeling aiai at np thr . cabby to darling hse . slack awhile & cabby home !!!

31aug2009
happy birthday to MALAYSIA !!

hhahs , kaileng aiai , irene mei & steve came under my block . chatted aawhile than we went to meet his friend zhiwei than rounding luhs . but morning 4 plus jiu went home lerhs . caused i'm tired mans!!!! super fun when we are on the way to devil's band!! upload photos later .

 LASTLY , CONGRATS TO JIAHUI FOR HER BABY TRICIA ARRIVAL